Rose & Co Blog

God Made Girls

In case you missed it, over on instagram (@roseandcoblog) we shared the news that  baby #2 is a little baby GIRL! We were in absolute shock when the ultrasound tech told us. It's official that I have absolutely no mom intuition when it comes to guessing gender, because if you recall, when we found out baby Sawyer was a he, I was absolutely positive he was a girl. This time around, I felt like I didn't even need an ultrasound because it was going to be another boy...and we all know how that turned out :)

We are literally overjoyed to be having one of each. Naturally, i'm going nuts buying all of the girl things (girl shopping is SO much fun) but I still have this tremendous guilty feeling thinking about sharing my heart with another baby. Did any of you mamas feel that way about baby #2? As excited as we are, Sawyer is my entire heart, and I can't even fathom sharing that love with anyone else!

We are still mulling over names, but i'm not one to keep it secret, so as soon as it's set in stone i'll be sure to share it.

I've been pretty darn quiet about this pregnancy so far, so I thought I would pop in with a bumpdate and a few bump selfies I have so far, because I absolutely love reading back on Sawyer's!  I know i'll regret it if I don't document at least some of this pregnancy so off I go:

How far along? Almost 17 weeks! (I'm counting this as almost halfway there. Glass half full, people)

Total weight gain: Nothing yet, although I have a doctors appointment tomorrow that might tell me otherwise. I've been so sick this pregnancy and not able to eat much.

Maternity clothes? Since around week 11. (Insert shocked face emoji) I was using a hair tie to button my pants around 8 weeks, and switched over to maternity just a few weeks later. It's amazing how much quicker your body jumps into bump mode after your first! I'm pregnant in a completely different season, so i've had to do quite a bit of shopping for the different weather. With Sawyer, I wore nothing but dresses and shorts as I was pregnant through the summer months, but yesterday I had to snag a maternity winter parka because none of my coats button and it's getting cold!

Stretch marks? I haven't noticed any new ones, but if you remember, i'm already pretty marked up from my pregnancy with Sawyer.

Sleep: Pretty good, actually! I am on diclegis for my non-stop vomiting, and it knocks me out pretty quickly. Also, running after a toddler, working full time, and trying to manage feeling like donkey poo all the time really takes it out of you, so by the time my head hits the pillow i'm OUT! Jake is amazing in this department. He has taken up so much housework, always wakes up early with Sawyer so I can get in an extra hour, and never complains at my multiple weekend naps!

Best moment this week: I'm starting to feel actual kicks and it's AMAZING! Around week 13 I started feeling those little gassy squirming feelings, and I was amazed that it started that soon because I didn't feel those until around 15 weeks last time. In the last few days I have felt little popcorn pops which I remember to be those first signs of active legs :)

Miss Anything? Just feeling like myself. It's been a long few months of incessant throwing up, and pure exhaustion. The guilt that comes with this now that we have our little guy is even worse! I always feel like the worst mom or that i'm not doing enough around the house. I know this part will pass, but i'm telling ya'll, #hormones

Movement: See above ;) This baby really is an active one. We've had 3 ultrasounds so far and in each one she is a maniac! Flipping and flopping and kicking those long skinny legs. In our gender ultrasound she was even sucking her thumb which was the most precious thing i've ever seen!

Food cravings: I don't really crave a lot, but sometimes I get just really random ones. I had some chinese food the other night that I instantly regretted, as it normally goes with most meals. :) I've been eating a CRAZY amount of oranges! I probably have 3-4 a day. I love them cold out of the fridge and usually want another as soon as i've finished one.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Anything not making you queasy or sick?

Gender: Our first sweet girl!

Labor Signs: None yet! I still have those panic attacks that something is going to go wrong with this pregnancy, because I just can't fathom that we'd be blessed with 2 healthy babies and pregnancies in a row, but so far so good!

Symptoms: Constant throwing up, headaches, exhaustion, itchy legs, should I go on?

Belly Button in or out? An outie ALREADY! My belly button never fully went back to innie after having Sawyer, so it was almost immediate that it started popping out with our little girl.

Wedding rings on or off? on

Happy or Moody most of the time: If we're being honest, pretty darn moody! It's so weird, because the majority of my pregnancy with Sawyer I was floating on air. This one I cry constantly, get road rage at the drop of a hat, and have a really short patience for anything. I'm convinced double the girl hormones are making me a little crazy :)

Looking forward to: Our anatomy scan! I feel like once we get this I will finally be able to rest easy knowing all looks good with our baby girl. I also can't wait for all of the packages i've ordered the last few days to show up! Bring on the bows and pink! And unrelated to this pregnancy, I can't freaking wait for Christmas morning. This season has been beyond magical with Sawyer, and I can't wait to see his face light up when he sees what Santa left for him under the tree. The kid will only be 14 months, so i'm expecting he'll prefer to play with the cereal box more than anything else, but it is all still so exciting!

And just for fun, here are the only three bump selfies I could find! I wasn't lying when I said this time around, i'm huge. (and i'm blaming it on the baby not on the fact that I never lost all of my belly from the first time around. denial ain't just a river in Egypt)

Eight Weeks:

Ten Weeks:

Thirteen Weeks:

Thanks so much, friends, for checking back after my few weeks of silence! You can always follow along on snapchat (@absolutelykylie) as i'm much less quiet over there. :) 

Until Next Time,

Fall Family Photos & Sawyer is ONE!

Ya'll, I can't begin to thank you enough for all of your kind and thoughtful messages about the announcement of our second pregnancy. I think the months of keeping it secret are so fun because you're keeping something so big from so many people, it's almost like being sneaky when you're a kid, but nothing compares to the excitement of sharing with those you love! It has made this all feel so real to us.

On Sawyer's birthday, we snuck away with our friends who were in town to take a few family pictures and some one year old shots of our lumberjack! It's been a crazy warm October so we were all sweating but as usual, Sawyer was hamming it up and I just love how these pictures turned out!

Since becoming pregnant, i've basically been useless. Just surviving work, motherhood, and the amount of times I throw up a day has felt like a herculean effort, and Jake has picked up all of my slack so wonderfully. He has taken over bathtime and dishes and does so much more than his fair share of housework, and there have been SO many times I want to post an instagram or a facebook note just to shout to the world how much I appreciate him, but you guys, we haven't taken a picture just the two of us SINCE JULY. As a blogger, and an oversharer by nature, it's odd for me to have no pictures of just the two of us, but Sawyer takes center stage in almost every picture these days ;) It was so important to me to grab a couple snaps of just us and my growing belly because he truly is my other half and the love of my life and i'm so grateful that I get to experience life with him.

Halfway through writing this post, i've just realized it's going to be a long one. My sweet little guy is one. ONE! How is that even possible?! I am going to dedicate an entire post to his monthly photos and milestones next week, but I can't finish this out without shouting from the rooftops how incredible this last year has been.

I genuinely feel like all anyone ever tells you is how hard parenthood is. And it's true, it does have it's hard moments. But they don't even come close to the good ones. From the overwhelming joy and love so deep it feels like it will rip you in half, to the sleepless nights and explosive dirty diapers, i've enjoyed every single second of being this kid's mom.

Every night I beg God to keep him safe, to teach me how to be the mother that Sawyer needs, and I desperately thank him for the incredible blessing Sawyer is to my life. He is hysterical, rough, loving, and an absolute treasure.

I mean, these eyelashes! He is constantly referred to as a girl by strangers despite the amount of plaid or camo his dad puts him in, but I just shake it off cause he is one beautiful baby and I get the mistake ;)

This last year was amazing. I didn't blog as much, I never lost all my baby weight, I cried more than I'd like to admit, but BOY did I enjoy it. Mom life is the best life.

Until Next Time,

Boo! Here Comes Baby Number TWO!

Over labor day weekend, I caught a terrible virus. My temperature rose to 104, my tonsils were so swollen they were practically touching and I felt like I was knocking on death's door. I went into Urgent Care hoping for some relief, and in my check-in they asked the usual questions, "how much do you weigh, what medicine are you taking, when was your last period?"...I totally didn't have an answer for that last question. I was still nursing full-time and hadn't had a regular cycle so I didn't think too much of it, just begged the doctor for some medicine (which he didn't give me...grr) and went on my way.

That night, around 3:00 AM I woke up and couldn't shake out of my brain that I really didn't know the last time I had a period. I thought it would probably be safe if I just took a test so I could stop thinking about it. I knew I had one somewhere from when we were trying (desperately!) to get pregnant with Sawyer, so I found it deep in the medicine cabinet, peed on it, and went back to sleep. Ain't nobody got time to wait for that thing to develop in the middle of the night! Plus, there was not an ounce of my being that thought it might be positive.

That morning I woke up to get ready for work, and groggily went to my vanity to put on my makeup, and I had to rub my eyes 4 times. No WAY was that a second pink line. Are you kidding me?! WHAT!? Am I dreaming still? Once it registered that the test I had taken at 3:00 AM was indeed positive I just started hysterically laughing and ran into our bedroom screaming "IM FREAKING PREGNANT."

Jake stared at me and immediately thought I was full of it. He looked at me  and said "haha, what crazy symptom do you have now" and I threw the pee-stick at him and said "a positive pregnancy test." To which he responded, "well, you have been really sick lately, do you think that made it positive?!" and I had to explain to him that it doesn't really work like don't catch a cold and a baby all in one fell swoop. ;)

It took a few days for it to really sink in, but when I finally got in to the doctor a few weeks later, we found out that I was just about 6 weeks along when we found out, and I was just in complete shock! We immediately saw our little blob baby and his/her heartbeat flickering away and it was a really exciting feeling knowing we were doing this all over again.

I think I am just about 13 weeks now, with a due date of early May. Since we aren't all that sure of when we conceived, we're going off that first Ultrasound which wasn't all that great. We have another appointment on Thursday and will have a more exact due date/weeks estimate then!

The second pregnancy is so much different than the first. I am still violently throwing up daily, exactly like I did with Sawyer, but it just feels so much worse this time because I am chasing after that toddler tornado! (omg. i just called him a toddler) I also started showing crazy early, and i'm already completely in maternity clothes because just about nothing fits. It's so weird how much quicker your belly pops out! It is also flying by. Every second of my pregnancy with Sawyer seemed to take an eternity, and I was so worried about everything going wrong. This time, however, I feel like it's flying by and I am so much more at ease knowing, God's got this under control.

I wanted to wrap up by sending a big hug-to-the-heart of all you ladies out there dealing with infertility, loss, or heartbreak surrounding pregnancy. I remember as we tried to get pregnant with Sawyer absolutely detesting the women who got pregnant by "surprise!" and feeling like it was a direct punch to the gut every time I read something like that. I wanted my dear friends who are feeling this way to know, my heart is with you. I know I am not walking the same journey, but my heart is so with you and i'm praying daily that you get your miracle. It's a journey that is unbelievably rough in a way I can't possibly understand, but I hope I can offer a small token of love to you.

Thank you all so much for reading, if you have any other questions, snap them to me: @absolutelykylie . Our little lumberjack came down with a bit of a cold so I think we will be staying in this halloween, so I will do a little q&a later tonight. :)

Until Next Time,